Originally Posted by
IrishEyes88 
Maybe the positive attitude is the problem. I get this false sense that everything is ok and the future is bright and sunny. Next thing I know I'm just having a few shots just to relax. Everythings ok!
But it's not ok, and it's never "just a few."
Maybe i really have to look at the situation exactly for what it is. I know I should go to aa or something. I'm just scared.
I know what yer talking about. It's like a lose/lose situation sometimes. Your always telling yourself 'ah comon dont beat yourdelf up about this, gotta stay positive' Well what happens, you let your guard down, drink that beer, wake up a week later with no job and 10 empty bottles of vodka and a strong urge just to jump off the next bridge into the Hudson River. Well but fortunateley that's not how it works. Ugh,