DayTrader that sounds like it would be a dream come true. If I could be pre-alcoholic me again, that would be wonderful. Maybe AA is a good idea. It sounds like it's a supportive, kind environment.
When I was 22 I got a DUI and had to attend some alcohol classes. Basically, the instructor was a real jerk who talked to us like we were the scum of the earth with IQ's of 70. I guess that tainted my image of asking for help.
How long have you been sober? what made you finally say enough is enough?