Kia, love, please go to your GP and get on the list for counselling.
Can you get to Ormskirk at 7.30 tomorrow? There's an al-anon meeting
Ormskirk
Tuesday 19:30
Location: Ormskirk Parish Church (New Church House), Church Street, Ormskirk, Lancashire, L39 3RD England
If you call 0207 403 0888, they will contact someone from that group who can arrange for someone to meet you beforehand if you like. There may even be someone local to you who can you a lift. If I were nearby I'd do it myself.
Hon, it must be exhausting being at the end of pieces of string dangled by these men (this isn't the same one as when you joined, is it?). You sound very depressed by the whole shebang and I don't blame you one bit if you are.
Delete him from MSN too.