Hi Steve. I'm Tormented.
I come from a dysfunctional family, too.
I think the majority of people might say the same thing, as it is the human condition. We all seem to long for a different life than what we have. Different parents, different clothes, different houses, cars.
The grass is always greener...over a septic tank.
None of us are perfect, and perfect is over rated, anyways.
What makes me different than some, is that I took from my past what I could use, lessons learned, and left behind the things that hurt, and moved on. I know...easier for some than others.
You're not alone.