I did the same. Its your psyche cleansing - you are healing, remember-
I have been around SR for 2 years now - those who keep contact, always come back to SR, everytime more hurt...
You are now saved from further hurt. The pain will subside, and you'll smile again, I promise. Just some curves on the road, that's all- its NOT going to be like this forever.
Hugs,
TC999