well it clicked, and stuff around me just become less annoying I went for a walk and I do feel better. I pray I can take this to the group next time it comes up, I did express this sadness to some of my friends, but they aren't alcoholic and they aren't in my moment to moment affairs the way I can be on here or with my sponser so it really doesn't work if you bring it up one time with your friends. Have to work on it until you get it figured out or have a long term plan to deal with it. On a bright note my walk I just had was good!