Originally Posted by
HealingWillCome 
I feel for you Phineas, I really do, because
Please try no contact. If you can bring yourself to stick with it, it is HEALING. It works, but I had to learn the hard way. You can love her and honor your well-being at the same time by not getting tangled up in dead-end communication. I learned that contact with him gave me a fix...for a while...but when the fix was over, the pain came flooding back and I was wanting another fix. Just like an addict.
You're right. I am acting like an addict. Everytime I send a text, I wait for her response, when it comes, it's a fix, when it doesn't, I go into withdrawal.
I really need to stop contacting her.
I keep trying to get her to understand that the only reason our relationship ended was because she chose to continue drinking, even after all the chances I gave her to quit. She doesn't seem to understand that or to acknowledge that, and I don't know it she ever will. There no point in continuing to try.