Originally Posted by
TeM 
Well, it didn't take long. She was drunk again last night, sitting in her recliner, hiccuping with her head on her shoulder.
I'm running a bizarre gauntlet of thoughts these days. I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I'm almost relieved when she's drunk, because then she leaves me in peace. I know that's horrible, and I feel guilty about it, too. I guess we all have our own demons to deal with.
Peace is nice
I wouldn't feel a bit guilty about wanting peace.
I don't know where you are on your journey, but if it were me, I think I'd just be clear "I am uninterested in being intimate with you as long as alcohol also has a place in your life. You say you aren't an alcoholic and don't have a problem with alcohol, so it should be no loss for you to walk away from it permanently."
Of course she won't. But then you both will know exactly where you stand.
Sad stuff.