Glad you found us, MG...... Alcohol made my life miserable, too, you would think we'd stop after suffering so much but we don't. Not without help and ongoing support. BUT the good news is that with the right support and recovery program, we can completely turn out lives around. You really can do this, even though right now you can't imagine a life without drinking.
You're not alone. We've all been there, too. Keep reading and posting, OK?
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