i don't know if you're working a 12 step program but this saying applies i think.
We came.
We came to.
We came to believe.
i don't believe in the judeo-christian external god concept, but i have my own concept that is working in my life, and it's taken time to understand it and it's also ever changing. but basically the power greater than myself are spiritual principles and the law of cause and effect, or karma.