41 days and struggling with spirituality
It's not that I don't have a relationship with God, it's just that I don't feel his presence as intensely as I used to, and it makes me wonder sometimes if he is there. I am a believer, trying different faiths on for size, but generally I just have my own beliefs. In short I believe that God is omnipresent, a part of everything. I also believe that God hears all prayers, regardless of who is saying them or what higher power they are praying to. Back when I was first trying to get clean (march and april) I would feel God's presence when I prayed. However that did not keep me clean. I am looking for something deeper. I struggle with the idea that God can restore me to sanity. Sometimes I feel too insane for anything to be done about it. I guess I am sort of rambling, but I am asking-- How did you find a working relationship with your higher power, and how do you feel its presence in your life?