I knew for a very long time that I was an addict and in fact had no problem admitting it, to others to myself and to the God of my understanding. The issue I had ( and as with all my problems I didnt see it until it was too late) was that I really had not accepted, that little voice I als tried to ignore was in my head ( yet again) telling me that this time it would be different .......for me I had to accept that I can never use a drug again, for me to use is to die and when I am not doing the next right thing and not being honest with myself I can forget that very easily ......
All our paths are different and this may not be the case for you but I just found that saying it was totally different to truly admitting it to myself and accepting that I will never use again :-)