I'm glad SR was helpful to you, AlcoholicorNot.
Something I'd like to add to what you said is this: I know I'm an alcoholic because I drink to get drunk. I don't want to moderate. Why should I have 2 drinks when I could have 200? When I think about relapsing, I don't think about just having a drink or two. I think about getting braying sh!tfaced and how much fun that would be. It wouldn't matter if I drank once a month, once a year, or once a day. I'd still get drunk every single time I picked up a bottle. It's a scary picture, but it's the real me.
