thanks guys! Yea, I have to spend some time thinking about this. I guess since the drinking never had any significant negative impact on my life, it's a bit odd to realize that you are an alcoholic after you figure out that you are going through withdrawal every day. However, I did really hate myself every morning when I woke up - hated that I drank the night before. I would say that it's time to quit for good - but I just can't seem to admit to myself that I really can't EVER drink again. Wow. That's big.