Wow -
You mentioned you are Catholic... so am I. As we both know, God is always there to talk to. He's always available to listen. And He's always there to provide strength, encouragement and to guide us when we feel lost. Now would be a great time to give Him a call in your head. He already knows what's wrong so you don't have to retell it....you just need to try and clear your mind to listen to His directions. Feel free to tell Him you're scared, don't really know what to do and don't want to do the one thing you can think of.. He'll understand........and He'll let you know what He wants you to do. And if you don't think you have the power to do what He tells you.....just ask Him for some help and He'll be glad to.