Very scared feeling suicidal
I feel like I'm done. The only reason I haven't done it yet because I have a son. I can't have him grow up knowing his mom killed herself and his father is an alcoholic. I was also raised catholic and feel the suffering will be worse on the other side. I feel so despret to escape. I feel so tired. I feel so alone. I can't do this anymore. I feel done at a dead end. I am alone with a 15 month old baby. I love him so much, but I am so unhappy. I just want to go to sleep and not wake up, but I can't leave him. I feel like the days never end. they just keep going on and on and on and on. I can't tell anyone how I feel I don't want anyone taking my son from me and then thowing me away in institution until I get better. That will just make it worse; more painful. I don't know what to do. Please help with words of encouragement. ..if I can just get through tonight.