Mad when drunk.
G'day Hitman,
Man that first half or so is my story exactly. When I am sober I am polite, senstive, caring, honest etc. However when I hit the hard stuff, usually vodka I turned into a monster. Occasionally I managed to keep it in check but not often. I would go out and think come on keep it together, just have a good night, you can control it. I just couldn't though, I knew I was doing it but couldn't stop. More often than not, almost without fail after I was full up with vodka I would unleash. Cruel is not the word, diabolical would be better. Usually on my girlfriend of the moment (I have lost some wonderful girls who could not put up with it time after time although really did try) but also friends, great friends. I don't know why we do that but I know when I don't drink I don't do it and that is the only solution I have found.