Yes, it is selfish and he should be more concerned with me and the baby, but from what Ive seen is addicts are self centered and only care about themselves... thats why I want him to get better so badly so he will see clearly the things he has done wrong and in turn bust his a$$ trying to make it up to me and his son. And I have control over what I can do, and I cant bring myself to just walk away from him. Im sure that can only have negative affects and not positive. What Id love is control over him and his addiction, but thats impossible and irrational. And youre right, I am worried about how his addiction and recovery will affect our son, and his relationship with him. I grew up without a father, and his father was never around, so we both know what thats like and why we want to avoid it. So basically everything Im doing for him Im doing for our son and because I love him.