Sounds to me like you've already decided.
I loved this from ChrrisT:
You don't have to feel guilty for wanting a quiet life without an alcoholic. It's actually a good, stable decision.
The guilt isn't a 'natural' guilt.
'Natural guilt' is ...
like when you were a kid and ate an entire package of cinnamon rolls
after swimming and got sick.
Now, to this day you (er..*I*) can't even SMELL a cinnamon roll.
That's "Natural guilt' ...
the body ... warning against repeating something
that brought it harm.
The kind of guilt
that comes from an illogical notion
that we can control
or even be responsible for
the choices and actions of someone else ...
that's an aquired feelng.
I personally think you sound pretty dang rational and logical.
you finally get to this :
come here and get this :
then you can wind up like .. :day6