Hi Lexie - Thanks for the suggestions. I see that there is an open discussion meeting at same place, same time as the closed beginners meeting. Tomorrow night there is a meeting closer to my home at a church which is not a special meeting (not beginners nor women only) so I might wait and go to that one. Can you feel my anxiety building?? When I get anxious I obsess. But I also don't want my first time to scare me away totally so want to max. it being a good experience. Like I said, last week at this time (day 3) there was no way I was even going to try a meeting. So I have come a long way and don't plan to go backwards.