Yes,I hope so,at least well drama like this will be the last. I too believe I craved it,I mean I'm one of those people that like to do my work late because of the stress that I thrive on.It's that adrenaline feeling,and pushing myself to finish the work.However I'm not sure how that relates to my relationship,I think I liked to be the victim too,but I'm starting to realize that this was too much.
I just wanted a lot out of him because I believed he could do it,just that he didn't want to.Somewhere inside him,the person I first met,that was the person I fell in love with.I lost him somewhere in between that time,and now I only remember him as an alcoholic,how I left him,and how he will always be until he gets help.