I spoke with him this morning and I really don't think it took. I think he thinks I'm just mad and trying to make him feel bad. I still feel like I'm being cruel, but I know it's just my unreasonable guilt. I don't know what else to say except that I feel cruddy right now and I have a feeling he will be trying to convince me that my feelings about leaving are wrong. After 15 years this is just plain hard.