(((ExCordis)))
I'm sorry for your heartbreak. It is sad leaving someone we care about. There were shared feelings and dreams. Be gentle with yourself.
It may take some time for you to grieve the end of the relationship, and the loss of the dream of what could have been.
You are such a wise young lady. I believe you are going to be okay!
One of the things that helped me get through the toughest days was this:
I kept a list in my wallet of what my relationship with my active alcoholic meant.
It said:
________'s love comes with:
drunkeness
emotional instability
loneliness
financial instability
legal problems
physical illness
depression
I looked at that list when I was feeling lonely and wanted to call my A.
Keep reaching out for support, we are here for you.