I know, it is like fighting for their lives! I appreciate how you keep stressing "the person we dont know". It is helpful- I would not let anyone treat me this way. And he is not my son, not this monster. this is your brain on drugs=my son the monster.
thank you for your encouragement. I feel like with enough of this, and crisis days like this, I will eventually do the right thing. I seem to see my son through some other glasses- like he is unable, like his hands are tied. There seems to be some sort of belief system in place here- one in which I see him as helpless. Where is that coming from? Helpless does not fit him at all. Maybe resisting risk taking. A lot of resistance, even to the point of making excuses for not trying things. He has the most ridiculous explanations for why he does not try this or that.
guess i will take a acetominaphen,, and get this head to stop hurting , so i can sleep.
big hug to you! and have a good night.
chicory