Originally Posted by
Summerpeach 
The anxiety I felt was strange, we would spend every 2nd weekend together and maybe 1 night during the week and it seems like I would start to get sick the day I would see him. Then when we would go out, I would feel like this panic.
He once said "you always seem to get sick around me and feel well when I'm not around"
He was right, I could not admit that, but it was true.
As much as I loved him, cared about him and as much as I loved our weekends together, I was always in fear of something crazy happening.
Though we rarely fought when together, it was mostly on the phone when apart.
Odd!
Oh yes, it's your body telling you to get out. I even convinced myself that I was hypoglycemic at one point. I would wake in the morning and feel all weak and dizzy - so I would force feed myself complex carbs, feel okay almost immediately, and through this I convinced myself I was ill. The mind playing tricks on me.
Went to the doctor, had every test imaginable done on me - and the doc says, "Look, I can't find anything wrong with you - it's all in your head. It's anxiety, you should speak to someone."
Then I was better.
Amazing what an abuser can accomplish with their mind games.
They live in their own little private reality, and they specialise in revisionist history to the point that it is mindboggling for the person on the receiving end who happens to be grounded in reality.