I understand. I go days with out leaving my place, and it's a task to get showered and dressed. I need to make myself do these things. I am often afraid of being laughed at or criticized but that's just because I was brutally humiliated all the time growing up. It's hard to change your perception of yourself when you have been the subject of ridicule for years. So it's a real hurdle. I drink to escape that. I know it's not the answer though.