Awesome work MissB!! Good for you for having the courage to look at YOU!! What an excellent inventory you have taken of yourself. Truly, truly admirable. Please don't mess yourself up by remaining mired in shame and guilt, because shame and guilt are part of the disease. You have acknowledged your wrongdoing (according to your own morals), and you have admitted them to another person. That is so excellent. Now, you will not forget and will be able to apply this in your daily life. The right time and circumstances for making amends will arise soon enough