Thanks so much for the comments guys & girls, it really does help
Day 6 now. Its only morning, and the cravings are starting. First time since I stopped & I really feel like a drink. Usually, if i felt like a drink I would just do it, then it would always without fail turn into a drama-filled night, weekday or not. I explained to my b.f that although he said he does not want to take drinking away from me, i should cut down, and I replied that he knows me by now and that would never happen, so I asked him to help me, to distract me really, to start going away for weekends just us and my lil boy, he agreed. I'm feeling good, things are looking up for once. Its amazing how only 5 days sober makes such a difference. I would probably be sitting here regretting lastnight or the night before, wondering what I done in front of everyone. Im going to distract myself today. Should probably be studying lol. I really aprreciate ALL your comments. I read through them & i feel so much better, like I am finally doing the right thing.