katie28

Hi,

Last weekend my XAB moved most of his stuff out of the house. It was very emotional. His mood was different every time he came to the house. The worst was when he made fun of my dad who was doing some work at my house and I called him out on it and then he called me 'Dr Nasty' and his friend who was here helping him started laughing which spurred him on and I got upset and walked away. I continued to forge ahead and help move his stuff out of the house. He still has quite a bit of stuff in the house but becuase his new place is a 'dump' as he calls it and is quite small he cant fit everything in the house.

So Sunday was very sad becuase he took his puppies. On Monday I was on my way to work when I slipped over and sprained my ankle. I've just come off crutches but I have been home all week.

He dropped by on Friday as I let him know he had some mail here. Becuase I still do care about him I asked how he was going. He said that he had relapsed a little and has now decided he should go to NA not AA. He is also not going to go back to work full time as he cant handle it. How he will pay for all his expenses... i dont know...not my problem..... but I still worry about his dogs. I know that the other night he fed them fries as that is all he had. Seems like he is not in a good place at the moment. He said that he would drop by over the weekend to pick up the rest of his things and drop off the house keys.

So now its the end of the weekend... no word from him. I messaged him to see what the plan was to get the rest of his stuff out of the house. He replied saying that he wont be able to fit much more in his house and that he will drop the keys off at some stage but he doesn't know when.....

I got a new puppy on the weekend as my 3 year old puppy is lonely and I prefer to have lots of puppies around. So I messaged the XAB to say that If he is going to come to the house then he needs to advise me prior so I can get someone to meet him here as I have a new addition in the house. He said that was fine.

Seeming as though I have been sitting at home all week with a sprained ankle, feeling pretty miserable, I have been focusing on detaching and on myself. I have good and bad days like everyone. Today must be a bad day as after we exchanged messages about the house business I sent him a message tonight asking if everything was ok... and of course he doesn't respond. Although I am focusing on myself the codie in me still slips back and wants to know how he is going. The difference is now that when he doesn't respond I dont go nuts, I just focus on detaching with love.

I dont know why he wont give me the house keys back. I was going to get the locks changed, however I didn't want to give him a reason to go crazy. I dont know if he is avoiding it as its the last thing that is connecting us, or if he is just being self centred as usual?