Harry.....removing alcohol removes the mask. It was hard for me and hard for many of us which is why getting sober takes strength and courage.....both of which you have.
I found counseling extremely beneficial since just getting sober didn't fix me into the person I am now overnight. I needed help to understand me....what i was feeling and positive ways to handle everything in my life.
Stay strong....this is just another piece of early recovery.....No matter what happens in my life.....I would never want to live the hell I lived in for years.
So glad you shared with us and I am so proud of your determination and all this beautiful time spent sober.
Any day without alcohol is a blessing. Keep it going!!!