Harry:
What really amazes me is the great love and wisdom I see in all these messages to you! Here are so many friends for you, all on your side and rooting for you! And all seem to have been through what you're going through now. It's very tough. As you say, all your armor is gone, but you know that armor was killing, and would have killed you. Your body still wants alcohol and is playing tricks with your mind. So read over these messages from all these wonderful folks, seek a counselor if you can, attend AA meetings which you find congenial and non judgmental (I found quite a few), seek a good sponsor and day by day, month by month things will get better and better. All these people here, all on your side! What a wonderful thing! Every good wish!
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