Hang in there Harry. I was 50 when I quit drinking with the mentality of a 20 yr old, I barely left my home (or talked to anyone) my first year of sobriety except to go to work and to church; I had no idea how to live sober. I cried at least weekly that first year, first because of the "sorrow" of not being able to escape via alcohol, then from the shame/regrets of my drunken life. I read everything I could find about recovery and I started practicing what I read and now I can't imagine how I even survived all those years in that drunken haze, my life is at least 10 times better now! Stopping drinking was the easy part for me, recovery-learning to live sober was the hard part but WELL worth it.