Hi, StormCloud,
You are getting a lot of good advice, here. It IS scary to realize you've lost your ability to control your drinking. But it happened to all of us, and it happens to lots of people.
You don't have to make a decision tonight or even tomorrow about what to do about your drinking friends. For now, don't hang around them while they are drinking. Some you may wind up keeping as friends, some you may not. You don't have to figure it out right now.
Even if you tried Al-Anon and didn't care for it, it is worth checking out a few AA meetings anyway. If you don't like it you don't have to stick with it. It's a good idea because you will see and hear from lots of people like us, in person, talk about how they got sober and how much better their lives are now. And you can hear how THEY did it.