He also said "now you are going to pay the double for rent"
Which made me double guess myself for the Nth time.
But then I thought before I met him, I was already paying the double.
And as you all say if I am relaxed and happy I will be able to study and give my job its place and grow and earn more $. A stressed TC goes nowhere. BTW thank God I CAN pay that $. He is working a lot and saving enough to leave. He already knows a friend who is also willing to share an apartment. I like that friend.
And yes, with therapy I aim to feel better overall with my life. And then we will see what he brings to the table. Soon he will earn more than me. We will see if he is as "generous" as he has always promised (LOL!) or if he was just a player. In any case I won't be around him 24x7 and that is progress.
Thanks for the support. It really made me stop double guessing. No more stress because the cats run around at night and don't let him sleep! What a blessing.