I agree completely with Lexie, there is nothing shameful about gettin help.
Everyone is different but one of the things I found really helpful was going to the library and reading books on alcoholism and recovery, I didn't want to buy them because I didn't want the cashier to think I was an alcoholic...LOL:-) anyway, I found the fact that the books on alcohol abuse at my library where the most used books I ever saw there very comforting..in addition to learning I took a lot of comfort in knowing how many others had read those books as well:-)