Welcome lostinstl - it's wonderful you found us.
I'm shy, too & that's one reason I found SR so helpful. I look back to 3 yrs. ago & can't believe I was afraid to make my first post. I became a daily visitor here after I received such a warm welcome. A few months after joining I finally had the inspiration and courage I needed to give up a lifelong dependency on alcohol. I hope you'll keep posting and reading and find it as freeing as I did. Knowing I wasn't alone anymore was huge to me. I felt a burden lifted off me that I'd been carrying for many years - no one in my life understood, since they were all social drinkers who hadn't a clue what a fight it was to stay sober.
You have a new life starting soon, and you can face it clear headed and free. Congratulations on making this decision. Let us know how it's going.