Start by going to bed sober (now) and waking up sober and taking it 1 day at a time, hopefully coming here to the chat room daily when I feel the need to use (I'm able to get online at work on an unmonitored connection from my phone don't worry =p ) and post updates. I'm also going to try and find a meeting locally that works for me, but I'm very shy and I know a lot of people professionally who are in AA and NA and I cannot have them see me there. I know it's confidential and they could never act upon it, but I've seen far more cut-throat things happen. Maybe go out of town 20-30 miles?
Either way, I will post again tomorrow after a night of sleep and a sober morning. Thank you so much for replying, it feels more real now. This post can serve as my sobriety date =) TY