Hi SB and welcome! Be proud of yourself that you want change in your life. It's not easy to do, especially when there's alot of emotional trama going on, but it's the best thing you can do for yourself, regardless of what happens in your marriage.
Drinking always led me to do/say things I wouldn't normally do or say, and when I was younger, I had unintended physical relationships as well when I drank. It takes away our inhibitions, which may feel good at the time, but looks differently in the light of day.
You'll find AA is alot like coming here - people know exactly where you're coming from and are all doing the best they can to stay sober and make life positive again. It's like group therapy, and you don't have to say anything if you don't want to. Hope you'll post again and let us know how things go!
