(((HUGS))) Welcome to SR! The first step in recovery is admitting that you have a problem. Good on you for doing that and for finding a meeting to attend. You haven't done anything that many, many alcoholics haven't done. While you are right not to blame what happened on alcohol, alcohol does mess with our brains and we do make some really bad decisions while drinking.
Perhaps, if your husband sees that you are truly serious about recovery, he will be willing to give things a chance. The thing is, you have to be 100% committed to recovery regardless of what your husband decides. Sure, he's hurt right now and may be angry about what has happened, but don't project what might happen in the future. Just deal with today and set your mind to getting well. Hang in there and once again, welcome to SR!
