Katie, every single one of us mom's have heard the same line from our children. And the funny thing is that when they are saying it, I really think they mean it. The problem is that they are addicts, and the pull to use is so much stronger than the desire to do the work it takes to stay clean. My son went cold turkey off of drugs and cigarettes. And he says, he will never forget the suffering. I know how you feel. It's awful what the mothers go through. I truly believe we suffer more than our addict children, at least until we let go. I finally got strong and let go. I was tired of being dragged. If it were up to us, our children would be successful, clean, healthy and strong. But, it's not up to us. It's up to them. I'm sorry that you have an addict for a son. It's the most painful thing I have ever experienced in my life. I will always love my son, but he cannot dump his problems and grief on me any longer. It's his life, his choice.