We haven't slept together for weeks.
Yesterday I was exhausted and fell asleep watching TV at 7pm .
So we slept hugging. Today we were also hugging and then he started doing some strange movements like insinuating something.
And I had it.
A discussion ensued, and I had arranged to stay with my friend for a few days. So I told him that. He was worried about rent. I said well if I can indeed stay away for a month, then it is on you.
So he proceeded to act all nice and say "sorry, I will NEVER do it again! I will behave! be more educated" oh where have I heard that before.
I said I was tired, he could trust me and count on me and I indeed offer STABILITY (at least financial ...) but I didn't have any from him, he has often been disrespectful and I don't deserve it.
He said I was angry for something "little" . He said "he is a man". And what is he supposed to do about his horneyness?
An anvilheadesque response that came from me was "how is that MY problem?"
He said we should talk at 6. It will be brief because I am going to my group therapy at 730 and I will also be packing a few essentials.
I got my food coupons and pay today. And you know what I will be shopping and eating with my friend. Not an extra cent of mine out of my pocket to that guy.
I am sad but I am also fed up. He even said he has done a lot of efforts for me, and even offered to sign for a next year contract so I can stay in that apartment. I said fine don't sign anything, I'll solve that somehow.
He said he wanted to see me happy and that he would leave soon. I hope that is true.
Anyway my plan B is staying with my friend, I really do think she will welcome me for more time and I will just be going home to eat and care for my cats and plants, or to get ready for work.
PS the water heating machine is old and got broken. When mentioning it BF says "well I am used to shower with cold water anyway". Yeah and what about ME?
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PPS Thanks God for sending me signs like a raging Neurodermatitis, to realize my stress is REAL and not imagined. I needed that physical sign to WAKE UP.