For all of the believers out there..I just wanted to say that I WANT TO BELIEVE more then anything...and that is a good first step.
well, you could "try" prayer and see how it goes. many of us have been where you sit right now, but as we worked the steps, the unexpected began to happen. for myself, it's not even about faith anymore, as some pretty spectacular fantastic events have occurred once i surrendered and got out of the way.
i too have nothing to do with organized religion. i go to the church of my heart.
regarding evolution, of course there is evolution. all of us can see this with our own eyes. but that doesn't mean there isn't a creator or a divine plan for things. BOTH can co-exits, no?
i guess what i'm saying is that you, in your free will, could choose to try prayer and see what happens, how you feel, what opens up in your life.
naive