Can I ask how long you have been 'single' or apart from a 'lover' / 'patner'?
The idea of going a few years without a someone is rather scary, yet liberating at the same time!
I tend to lose myself in a relationship, so while I want someone to love (god, that sounds pathetic).. I want myself more... and I like being free. It's all contradicting, and rather confusing to separate my wants/needs/desires. The idea of being alone sounds so delightful... but it also is filled with so much pain. It's like, can't I have em' both?! ;-p