Good for you, Eddie and welcome back!
I remember too many years of having to drink what was left in the morning to make the sick feeling go away. It wasn't a choice anymore.
In the end, it was the gut wrenching emotional pain and disgust with myself that made me say
enough. It was worse than any physical withdrawal I experienced and I had experienced
alot of those and they were bad.
A wise person here on SR posted this months ago and I saved it:
I also had a very high tolerance to alcohol and suffered few, if any, after effects from my drinking. I did not get sick from drinking.
I think that my high tolerance and lack of hangovers made it even more dangerous because I could drink excessively without any consequence whatsoever.
It was like having a race car without any brakes.
I'm sorry I can't give credit where it's due. I didn't save the person's name who wrote this, but to the person who did...Thank you!