kittymammas

I posted yesterday in the newcomers and I apologize for posting in the wrong place.
So I am leaving my alcoholic husband because he is really taking an affect on my kids a very negative affect. He is really trying to get me to stay, all those same promises he has been making and breaking for the last 7 years. I am just trying to stay strong and tell him no I will not stay, no I don't believe you when you say to me you won't take another drink, and no I don't believe you when you say wanna quit when just yesterday you said you are fine when you drink unless it is around me. I am just venting I suppose..this is just the hardest choice to make and I wish I didn't have to make it.
My new place will be ready in two weeks. I kinda feel bad for how excited I am to get my own place. I mean no more arguments over anything and everything, no more fighting for control of the situation and above all no more tears from my children for the wrong reasons. I mean yes I know they will be sad to leave daddy but id rather have them sad for a short while leaving daddy then them sad every time he drinks and my god my oldest has even asked me "are you sure daddy loves me?"
WOW..you know just getting it all out and re reading I can see what damage has been done and I know that by leaving I will be preventing so mush more.
I remember after I posted yesterday about my 5year old daughter drawing my husband hearts and rainbows after a blow up the night before, some one commented on how it brought them to tears and after I read it...it was a huge wake up call...my kids are being affected in the worst way, they are thinking its their fault and I cannot allow that anymore.
I am leaving, I am going to heal along with my children and I will always be there for a hand to hold if he wants to quit!