When i first was introduced to AA thru rehab i hated it with a passion, i remember i used to search the net for material that maligned the program and used it when i was in discussion group. After a few years of lies and deceit i hit rock bottom and crawled back to the rooms and without doing the steps or getting a sponsor i got sober. Today at 1 year, i find myself living abroad where there is no AA or any form of recovery treatment so im all alone on my journey. Forums like this are my lifeline to never having to take the first drink.....Peter