I think it's pretty common to feel that way at 90-120 days Rev.
We feel 'better' but we still have a lot of debris to shift...in a sense, the work is just beginning.
I just tried to accept that, until I learnt other ways to deal with stuff like stress and frustration, chances are I'd think of drinking a time or two...thats not a crime in itself but giving in to those feelings would be a crime against ourselves.
I tried to do what I could - the old deep breaths, and shifting mountains a shovelfull at a time thing - and I trusted the folks here when they said at basics all I had to do was keep on going - keep doing the right thing.
You've already got 102 days - you know how to do this Rev. Have a little faith in yourself
I know you well enough even from our limited interactions here to know you're not going to be a disappointment to anybody.
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