Hey Puppy Girl - although I live in MO, I'm from NH! I LOVE hearing from people from back home. My parents are in Harrisville, and both are active in AA and AlAnon. If you want me to get you in touch with them, PM me. I'm sure they'd be happy to help you find AlAnon meetings, or just talk. They live by a lake (incentive?).
Anyway... I'm with Live... do what's best for YOU. We women tend to get all wrapped up in pleasing others before taking care of ourselves. Problem is, if you don't take care of YOU, you can't take care of others. YOU-ARE-WORTH-IT!!!
Keep coming back here... we know just what you're going through.
HUGGS, TIGG!