Mick
I was struck with how similar I think your story is to coyote's.
Perhaps you can reach out and get strength from him and from the rest of us here. His daughter is solid, from what I can tell, because of the devotion and smart decisions he has made on her behalf.
Children are SO vulnerable and SO maleable. I beg you to try TODAY to do something - even one small thing - for her future. We will help you.