Thank you everyone, thank you so much for your words of advice and support. It is strengthening to know someone understands/cares. It does make a difference. Hubby called me as I was leaving for work and apologized for being unreasonable last night and said sorry for organizing lifts for the neighbours. I am just so sensitive at the moment. Sometimes I feel so alone in this. I have decided to quit drinking, but I think my husband feels I forced him into it because I said I was not ready to come home unless we stopped drinking at home. I think he resents me for it. And I resent him for resenting me..........as I said last month his GP thought he was suicidal, and he has made a few threats of suicide to me during heated arguments he is so depressed..............the alcohol does not mix with depression. Maybe I should say I don't want to drink but you do what you like, or do you think we should stick to our guns even though I feel he resents me ?so confused about all this